Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Nuts



i am kind of going crazy working from home. there, i said it. I am getting squirrely AND nutty, see above. I end up pacing around the backyard and talking to myself at the computer. There is too much to learn, too much frustration, too much anxiety. Will it ever end, the anxiety? At a certain point in the day I typically just can't do anymore. I feel confused about how much time should be spent in the shack etc etc etc. blah blah blah, crazy lady cuckoo head. I don't miss the work from the old beige although it was nice to get something done in an afternoon. i miss the beige pals and the general talky talk that I would normally engage in. now i am online and on the emails for my communications. and I actuallly have WORK to accomplish. sorrry. i am just not sure the work from home is all it's cracked up to be. (NPI)

I am trying to restrain temptations for troubs but it's really tough to be the keeper of one's own schedule. don't get me wrong - little by little the tasks are going somewhere. I am even currentlly working on a paying gig - but it's been a little weird to adjust to this. I am more the taskmaster than ever and have the arm wound, pinch neck. The constant schedule, how should I spend my time. lame. I need money.

17 comments:

fairy butler said...

i am going to end up shopping at the rite aid, associated, for social interactions. sad.

future arthur said...

get away from me. stop talking.

peeds said...

FB: it is hard to work all alone at home, which is why I've decide it's better not to work at all! What an idea. Anyway, I am so sick of beige at the moment I could curl up and take a nap. I think often times beige presents just enough (sometimes too much) social interaction to make a painter not feel so solitary. It sort of helps define the difference between solitary shack practice and social interaction time. They are both important.
Don't hang at the rite aid...try CVS.

fairy butler said...

thanks peeds. sorry your beige has been punishing as of late - but soon - - - Japan!!!

As for me and whatever I totally want to "work" somewhere again - just not at some dead end low paying fart job like before. I don't mind work - I guess. I don't know.

I slept till almost 8:45 today. Very naughty. I'm getting a late start and since my mornings involve cleaning the house (cause I'm crazy) it's now after 10 and I've yet to crack the code. I have got to be up to speed and ready to present my work to future beiges by the end of next month. MUST HAPPEN. Hopefully sooner.

I am working on an artist website right now that is so ridiculous, art so lame, it's just sad. I am like - why are you bothering with this?

Ok. No more stalling.

pd said...

i like the words: "crack the code" it is so Mission Impossible sounding.
Good lucks today Fb.Get cracklin.
I am excited about getting outta here next week....i need it.

Corny said...

Don't worry Fb, you'll adjust to keeping your own schedual. Soon you'll be sleeping in till 9:30 and spending the rest of the morning shuffling around the house, continually making cups of tea and losing them, eventually getting to work around noon.... guilt free!

martin said...

nine thirty is sleeping in? uh oh.

They call me Mr. Dubz said...

FB,
I'm listening carefully. I recently went from beige to tan and am wondering if I should stop so I can get more work done in the shack but then there is the money issue. If only everything was flying off the walls.

daiel said...

You're not missing anything. It's horrible at the beige.

Really. It's as bad as you remember.

Whatever you're doing now, being at the beige is worse. I promise you.

dubz said...

hey fb. how's it going?

fb said...

hi. i haven't bathed in three days. TRUE. Arthur and I got crazy yesterday and dug up the back part of the yard and lugged maybe 200 lbs of top soil, acutally more than that, in 2 trips to the home depot. We are making the grass. not the marijuana grass though. regular grass. I have to go outside now and finish the job, seed and mulch and spread the black dirt.

I feel like a housewife.

fb said...

i can see how this not working/not earning money thing could get to be a hard habit to break. time just sort of slips away and voila - i didn't do much with it.

Daiel, I am hoping you and the other ones can find a way out of the beige and into a new and better color. I fear that I may become terminally unemployed or something. Not really. but ?

fb said...

anyone know a javascript genius? I am trying to write my first script and I can't figure something out - stupid nodes. krix?

krixfort said...

fb, I am really a lazy person at heart. I would have no problem filling up a beigeless day. There would be some sleeping and some cofee and ridiculous amounts of media consumption (books, movies, etc. . .not so much Jerry Springer because then I would have shove an ice pick in my own eye.)

People who say they would still work if they won the lotto need to put down the pipe.

krixfort said...

oof, FB, answered you on my blog. answer recap: send me an email and I'll see what I know.

fb said...

krix, i just sent the email with attachments galore. i need a tutor maybe.

AlsoArthur said...

640 lbs of topsoil fb. 640. Still not really enough :p