Friday, August 25, 2006

general curses versus spiritual attack



this is the battle. the questions to ask:
  • who am i?
  • where can i be found on the spider's web matrix?
  • why?
  • huh?

    i should not be blogging. i should be dressed and at the helm of something this morning rather than still in pajamas. the fb is suffering from the performance anxiety. the plans that were set in action are causing confusion. i cannot face the plans and remain paralyzed and wandering. need order in the court. is it just me? so much to do but inability to do any. maybe i will just go to the shack and sew 100's of tiny beads to form a happy hot air balloon with a pony riding in it. fuck. sorry.
  • 24 comments:

    fairy butler said...

    i pretty much live in that web 24/7. resentment is my front door, worry the back yard. ok, i'm going to make some coffee now.

    fairy butler said...

    i am not even 'ready' to start figuring out a new beige but still i persist in looking at listings. which leads to christmas depression, doubt, etc. why can't every job pay 100,000/year? why? is that so much to ask.

    todd (keira's dad) said...

    I'd say you might need to get out of town for a few days...but you just were. nap? perhaps a nap would be nice? oh, sorry thats what I want. I could bring keira over and she could bite your butt and you would launch through the air like a rocket; after landing you may feel motivated!

    sloth said...

    fb, were you bitten by an anxious radioactive spider as a child? maybe this is the way you derive your bead-sewing superpower. Pony in balloon = good juju.

    If this feeling continues, I suggest a poultice of chocolate applied to the mouth.

    fb said...

    sloth i think i need a narcotic poultice at this point. todds, is keira's bite infused with a dumbing agent?

    i'm scared i guess. oof. i worry that i won't be marketable. that i'll have to get some horrid temp job sending faxes or something. i know this is a waste of my time to sit here and worry and stew. need to focus on something anything.

    fb said...

    going to the shack sends me into a different sprial of self-loathing. it's time to start hitting the face with hammer i guess.

    dubz said...

    sloth, your vocab makes me feel like a 12-year old mentally-retarded midget. i may need you to provide links to dictionary.com.

    fb, you're the spider, i.e. the predator, not the prey. fuck the web. you're marketable as hell, plus talented. not just good on paper like a lot of people. you will have no problem finding a job that pays $1 zillion per year and/or you will sell tons of relics and be able to ditch beige altogether.

    sloth said...
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    fairy butler said...

    dubz, can i just carry you around in my back pocket and you can repeat that all day to me? thank you. i have a gift, a gift in the self-torment department. actually, i just found a job listing that I could do, pays what I want, is contract, so i feel better. i'm a nutcase. i won't apply but knowing there are things out there relieves the spider.

    i'm really gonna have to cut this off. this spidering. also, i'm gonna have to chill on the blogs in a few weeks. you know, when i get down to my bizness and such. lames.

    sloth said...

    Well-said, Dubzy!

    Here at log, morning is the worst time for the worries. I have a panic attack about teaching every morning. If I do something productive about it, like writing, reading, etc. the anxiety subsides.

    it's normal for you to feel this way, FB... if you weren't having these feelings I'd be worried about you. transition-time always produces the frets in the human species. You are smart, resourceful, and up until now, you have been undervalued. It is way past time for a correcting of that imbalance.

    fairy butler said...

    sloth, my other back pocket is for you. i am so excited for both of you - dubz relic parade and sloth's teaching parade. so awesome. really great.

    peeds said...

    FB, do you have room for me in your fanny-pack? 'Cause I believe in you--the power of the FB!

    Blogger is fouling for me this a.m. and I am losing my patience. I want to post pics of Iron Lap. Will try later on.

    dubz said...

    sure, slothy and i will reside the the back pockets of your Lee Jeans™. we'll try to lay flat.

    dubz said...

    yeah, blogger sux today. slow as a mo'fo.
    HI PEEDS!

    hams said...

    come by for some Xanax any time FB. Serious.

    dubz said...

    hammy if you email me your address i'll fedex you a present.

    Corny said...

    Friggin Blogger didn't show me your new post this morning or I woulda been on here telling you to not be scared of that idiot spider. he's just a furry ball of fear that needs love and pets. Sometimes it helps me to think of my fears in a cartoon thought bubble floating above my head. I look at it and go "oh, your here" and then take a big mental pin and pop the bubble into oblivion. I actually do this all the time. It helps.

    You rock, you're gunna get what you want because you are smart and motivated and cool and make beautiful art -ditto all the things Dubz said.

    krixfort said...

    ditto on corny. you're one smart cookie FB.

    AlsoArthur said...

    what? what?! No new blogposts and it's your last week there?

    I expect extreme blogging this week. Especially if you are going to manage the beige bosses realworld expectations of what it will be like without you there.

    I tolds youzs before, your last week should be spent doing the same workload as the fulltimers.

    They'll have a heart attack after you leave, so this is only doing them a favor. A shadenfavor if you will, but a favor nonetheless.

    ham paw said...

    I don't mean to hyjack, but I just found out that my boss offered a friend of mine $5 more dollars an hour than I am making after working for 3 YEARS! he doesn't have a masters degree or any experience in this type of work. I am hopping mad. It isn't in writing so I can't bring it up with her. I guess women can be just as sexist, or they presume men need more money than women???? Anyway, I don't have anyone supporting me financially so this is very bad. Very wrong. Very very wrong. Very upsetting. Very wrong.

    ham paw said...

    I am going to cry from frustration. he doesn't have any experience in this job. And I want him to make the offered amount of money, of course. but I want to make that amount too. And it is very unfair. Very bad.

    fb said...

    hams, talk to HR maybe. Seriously - if this guy is doing the same job but is getting more money that is WRONG period.

    slothy said...

    Hammy, it's beyond wrong, it's also illegal:
    http://www.eeoc.gov/policy/epa.html

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