yo. it's 5:12am. once again i am plagued by the non-sleeps. how are you? here are some theories for future living:
1. calm down
2. don't freak out in the shack, ie don't have a spaz constantly because you don't remember how to make paintings or even know what you want to f'ing make. just continue. see #1.
3. smarten up at beige. i have been unfocused, which happens. mostly i am more interested in talking to people there than working on improving my skills and really, uh, i don't know, getting serious about my work. i don't know. i need to step back a little and self protect. don't want to get in too deep in any direction. i need to disentangle a little bit me thinks. this is quite possible.
4. get rebellious streak out of system. i think it may be over today - at least for now. cannot explain why.
5. try to not have insomnia.