living off the land

i am reading the omnivore's dilemma which i highly recommend. although if you are like me - - when you are only one eighth of the way through you will decide that the human race is doomed and horrible which leads you to think about capitalism and how it has mangled this country and fed off the poor people(whole other subject) through corporations/industrialized war machine and then how you are going to work at this very moment at the new beige and it's a fucking sham because you are working on ads for a credit card company which makes you part of the problem. this puts you in a bad place where the only option is to move to vermont and get solar panels and a well, get a small farm going and opt out. but maybe not vermont because you have to have a truck or jeep there probably and everyone drives which leaves you reliant on oil and polluting. plus when the bomb hits you will be too close to new york. so yes. this is how the day is starting out. these are the important questions that need answering. who will take responsibility for how fucked up everything else? according to my book this planet could never ever support the population it currently has without the mass amounts of industrialized corn we produce thanks to nitrogen fertilizer - which is created through fossil fuel. the discoverer of this fertilizer also was responsible for creating the poison gas used to kill people in concentration camps - i kid you not. we are using this planet up like a dirty greedy pimp. reading about feedlots this morning thinking about the cute cows and calves i sometimes see grazing in iowa when i am home. UGH. it's all so messed up. corporations do not take care of the earth or the people. money is their only interest and money cannot fix the earth when if finally gasps its final breath. aorry.

arthur and I sat next to gibby haynes last night at a restaurant.