I disagree with AA counselor. BB is right. If you feel anything at all that is unpleasant you must nix it with the elixirs of life. This is the recipe of modern man.
Stay with the feeling of pain. Pain and longing are productive as long as you do not let them control you. Get your liver and brain tested if you are concerned for your body. Otherwise, all is well with your soul.
i am in severe psychic pain bb. you know this. the pain is constant. (clearing throat)
no, i am not at beige thank god. I am speed-reading for bookclub and then going to see redon at moma i think. maybe i will go see fra angelico if i still have spirit left over. shall seee. shall see.
Just set your inner soul on fire with a righteous drunken fever.
Listen, Fra Angelico is definitely a cathartic experience if you are in need of one. There is fire there. People on fire and they are so calm-seeming. It's magical.
I say it is wrong, but only on account of the fact that I am jealous. Call it jealous rage. Like last night when the woman took my 1/2 dry clothes out of the dryer at the laundromat so she could have my dryer. I said "yo, chick on the cel phone; whats the deal with taking my clothes out of the dryer?! That is quite rude!, I'm standing right here can't you just ask me if I'm done?" I stopped short of calling her the selfish entitlement slag she was and she said sorry, but I could tell it was without feeling and she secretly thought I was insane and was afraid that I might call her a selfish cunt and piss on her delicates when she wasn't looking which I might have done if my wife didn't tell me to calm down. But its all good 'cause she is the kind of slag that tosses here stuff in the machine and then goes off and has dinner and then comes back after her stuff has been sitting dry, taking up space in a dryer for over an hour; but alas I left as they were locking the door and her stuff was still in the machines. wweeeee take that entitlement cunt! Karma sux doesn't it?
more evidence that people really really REALLY suck. that is so morally wrong to take peoples half wet clothes out of the dryer i don't even know where to begin. Ants treat each other better than people i've decided. i think i need a few bong hits that wont wear off cuz 06 has sucked hard so far. It would probably help if i lived in a warm place where all the nature hasn't been killed off, right? does that make people nicer? Cuz things are getting out of hand here in nyc. Btw, anyone read the Dana Schutz billboard in the Times? Outstanding.
oh toodles... that is a hideous story. i sorry. soon you will not have to deal with that stuff when you move. think of that.
and yes, bb, I saw the piece in the times. They just can't get enough D. Schutz. I like her though from what i can tell so I cannot get too worked up. I saw her ginormous painting up a MOMA yesterday and i must say it looked pretty good. ? Most of the contemporary stuff they have up makes so insanely angry and bored that it was a relief to see.
Anyway, I did not make it to the fra angelico. i will go this week. The Redon was splendid. I think i may have to make a relic in his honor - a combination eyeball/flower something. The new moma was sort of like the old one to me. I wandered around and looked for sparkly relics. deKoonings' woman and some schwitters were working for me more than usual. ? also gaugin - weirdly. and i said hello to vincent and gorky and matta.
Update: Yesterday I remained sober. only half a beer consumed. And I got into a horrible hellish mood which required laying in a dark room until it was safe to return to the light. Go figure.
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Yes FB. Yes it is wrong both morally and in terms of physics.
not if you're in a lot of pain.
are you working today fb? one of my co-workers actually came in today. Hello???
I disagree with AA counselor. BB is right. If you feel anything at all that is unpleasant you must nix it with the elixirs of life. This is the recipe of modern man.
Stay with the feeling of pain. Pain and longing are productive as long as you do not let them control you. Get your liver and brain tested if you are concerned for your body. Otherwise, all is well with your soul.
I love you and think you are super ok.
Super duper ok.
Redon will help you. I think so. Healing balms are there for you and maybe a purging, a tear or two.
i am in severe psychic pain bb. you know this. the pain is constant. (clearing throat)
no, i am not at beige thank god. I am speed-reading for bookclub and then going to see redon at moma i think. maybe i will go see fra angelico if i still have spirit left over. shall seee. shall see.
Just set your inner soul on fire with a righteous drunken fever.
Listen, Fra Angelico is definitely a cathartic experience if you are in need of one. There is fire there. People on fire and they are so calm-seeming. It's magical.
I hope you are ok, FB.
i promise to not set myself on fire.
i am embracing my inner fabeebles this weekend. brain schraim. right?
I say it is wrong, but only on account of the fact that I am jealous. Call it jealous rage. Like last night when the woman took my 1/2 dry clothes out of the dryer at the laundromat so she could have my dryer. I said "yo, chick on the cel phone; whats the deal with taking my clothes out of the dryer?! That is quite rude!, I'm standing right here can't you just ask me if I'm done?" I stopped short of calling her the selfish entitlement slag she was and she said sorry, but I could tell it was without feeling and she secretly thought I was insane and was afraid that I might call her a selfish cunt and piss on her delicates when she wasn't looking which I might have done if my wife didn't tell me to calm down. But its all good 'cause she is the kind of slag that tosses here stuff in the machine and then goes off and has dinner and then comes back after her stuff has been sitting dry, taking up space in a dryer for over an hour; but alas I left as they were locking the door and her stuff was still in the machines. wweeeee take that entitlement cunt! Karma sux doesn't it?
Hmm. I could use a bong hit.
Yes I am working today.
more evidence that people really really REALLY suck. that is so morally wrong to take peoples half wet clothes out of the dryer i don't even know where to begin. Ants treat each other better than people i've decided. i think i need a few bong hits that wont wear off cuz 06 has sucked hard so far. It would probably help if i lived in a warm place where all the nature hasn't been killed off, right? does that make people nicer? Cuz things are getting out of hand here in nyc. Btw, anyone read the Dana Schutz billboard in the Times? Outstanding.
MM. You described the Fra Angelico perfectly . . . cathartic. I actually went yesterday for the second time. Heart, meet floor.
FB. Set yourself on fire.
All this drunken fire talk reminds me of Kabir.
oh toodles... that is a hideous story. i sorry. soon you will not have to deal with that stuff when you move. think of that.
and yes, bb, I saw the piece in the times. They just can't get enough D. Schutz. I like her though from what i can tell so I cannot get too worked up. I saw her ginormous painting up a MOMA yesterday and i must say it looked pretty good. ? Most of the contemporary stuff they have up makes so insanely angry and bored that it was a relief to see.
Anyway, I did not make it to the fra angelico. i will go this week. The Redon was splendid. I think i may have to make a relic in his honor - a combination eyeball/flower something. The new moma was sort of like the old one to me. I wandered around and looked for sparkly relics. deKoonings' woman and some schwitters were working for me more than usual. ? also gaugin - weirdly. and i said hello to vincent and gorky and matta.
Update: Yesterday I remained sober. only half a beer consumed. And I got into a horrible hellish mood which required laying in a dark room until it was safe to return to the light. Go figure.
FB I missed you!
I sat in a cramped airplane seat smothered in clouds for 5 hours. It was like being in a state of suspended animation or purgatory. Not sure which.
And to answer you question. . .I say nay, not wrong. Moderation is the key they say. I am a fan of moderation, even if I don't know what it is.
we missed you too krixie! i am glad you are back safe and sound, no worse for wear!
yeah everything in moderation.
...well a bit more if needed.
...and a bump here and there to maintain plateau perhaps.
;p
I was lying about the moderation. I don't know what the eff that is.
You mean like with Oxy and Jack? My two best friends? Nah...it's not so wrong.
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